I became what I am today because of the traumatic year 1993, which changed the entire course of my life and beliefs. This was when my world turned upside down and the emotions of fear, insecurity, and loneliness clogged me into the deep dark valley of depression. I was then left deserted without any ray of hope, help, or a future. My story was similar to Job in the Bible who had it all and lost it alI. Similarly, I was also blessed to live a posh life, having been born in a Hindu elite family whose lineage goes back to royalty that provided me with all the best in life.

  I thought I was the happiest person in life. The peak of my success came when I had already established myself as a professional singer after obtaining my master’s in philosophy and psychology and a diploma in Advertising and Public Relations. However, all that was not sufficient enough for me, as I had an entrepreneurial mindset, and wanted to be a businesswoman. Then I started my “Sai Baba Textile Company” to manufacture garments for export, which later boomed and brought in huge profits to my company.

Even though I had succeeded to achieve my goal being a businesswoman and a popular singer, the overpowering sense of achievement to launch my career as a film producer added an extra feather in my cap. A young, handsome, industrialist named Chintu fell head over heels in love with me and after great pursuance, he succeeded to win my heart. Life was just great and perfect. I thought I was the luckiest lady in the world, soaring high on cloud nine having the best of all.

But suddenly, out of the blue, the streak of traumatic events struck me hard like Job and drowned me down to rock bottom. My flourishing textile business got shut and was suddenly sealed by the police due to a bomb blast that occurred near my factory, which damaged goods and took innocent lives. My film shooting which had been progressing in full swing was suddenly stalled when the new law was enforced on all the private banks to pull down their shutters. But that was not all. Life still had much more to snatch from me, and that was my family. Within the span of four months, I lost my four family members.

My beloved aunt who owned the Marina Guest House, the place of the Bollywood Film Industry, where each of her guests reached their heights, was brutally murdered. My precious mom died in my arms. My first cousin died as a young adult, and Chintu, the love of my life, committed suicide. Thus, I lost everything and had nothing left in my life to live for or to look forward to.

Depression had killed the very essence of me. That was the moment I needed God the most, so I went out in search of Him by visiting different temples, doing BHAKTI (prayer), and performing all the required rituals and offerings that the Pundits (priests) suggested me. I fasted on different days to be blessed by different deities, but nothing worked. All was in vain, and none heard my cry or answered.

As time passed by, I kept sulking down deep into depression. My eyes were completely dry – I had probably exhausted all my tears. I knew in my spirit I couldn’t let go of myself in doom, by lying down in a pit. I needed to lift myself up again.  I declared belief in myself, by knowing my inborn capacity and decided to change everything around me.

The next day I went out for an evening walk and while returning home I read a banner outside a bungalow that read “SOMETIMES GOD LETS YOU HIT ROCK BOTTOM SO THAT YOU CAN DISCOVER HE IS THE ROCK AT THE BOTTOM.” The words struck me, and I kept praying that I need to discover that ROCK, but to my surprise the ROCK had already chosen me before the foundation of the earth to be a vessel of honor for His Glory.

That was revealed to me when I attended a Hindu lady’s prayer meeting where all the ladies were praising and worshipping the Lord in tongues. I waited for a while and then closed my eyes and started praying saying, “Jesus I have come at your feet, heart-broken, shattered, and as a pauper. I have lost everything and every hope in my life. I need you and want you to come into my life.” The tears started trickling down from my eyes, as the sound of the lady’s prayers kept rising high. I soon found myself being delivered in the midst of a likeness of an expanse shining bright around me. I kept meditating within its aura of peace and tranquility, when suddenly something struck me deep inside that I was unable to discern. Although I had no visual encounter, I felt something assuring me within, that I was in the presence of someone who was Holy and divine. I kept calm and serene and humbled myself in prayer to sense the sheer joy of His supernatural power around me. I soon felt I was in a bliss of wonder as the gushing rivers of His love kept flowing through my body. The whole process was phenomenal, which made me feel complete and filled with the assurance that I was in a place where God had my attention. I felt God more real and near to me than ever, being mesmerized and soaked in the pure, pious, oasis of His serenity. This unbelievable, intriguing, mysterious adventure changed the very course of my life. I immediately fell at the Lord’s feet, promising that I would serve Him till my last breath. I then closed both my textile and film production companies, that were named after the Hindu deities.

Then He moved mightily by speaking into my life through dreams and kept on transforming the dream Revelations into Reality. And He made my faith to flourish into fruitfulness by giving me the privileges to share different stages with the world-renowned speakers at the Conferences, Convocations and Conventions, and by placing me on different international platforms across the nations to sing Gospel songs for His Glory. His love soon molded me to be His humble, dedicated servant, by plucking me out from the BOLLYWOOD TO BRING ME INTO HIS HOLY…WOOD, by lifting me up from the rock bottom of the pit, to soar high once again, no more for my selfish desires of name and fame, but to be a woman of great value to declare the treasures of His glory among all  the nations.  For the verse says in Psalm 96: “Declare His glory among the nations, his marvelous deeds among all people.”